(Unforgettable) Part 24: Echoes of the Past

‘No…no Khushi…it …the contract….it was a mistake. Our marriage is real,’ he rushed on urgently.

 

The voice undid the last knot. Something shifted inside her and Khushi felt it happen in slow motion…a sudden iciness and utter confusion as she tried to make sense of his words, of the misunderstanding…which did not seem like a misunderstanding but more like déjà vu. And then not a deluge, but a slow…a painfully slow replay of the images that had been long buried.

 

 

Earth slowly began to spin on its axis once again. The world righted itself and time resumed its movement after coming to halt with her. But Khushi sat still, unmoving in the darkness of the evening. Images flashed one after another, jerking her sleeping mind out of its inertia, setting the wheels of memory in a slow painful grind. Faces, voices, incidents shimmered clearly on the rippling surface of the pool – one fading into another till they gelled into a single thread – a single thread which tightened like a noose around her, her happiness, the exuberance with which she was waiting for her husband till a few minutes ago.

 

She heard Arnavji call out to her. ‘No…no Khushi…it …the contract….it was a mistake. Our marriage is real.’

 

But his voice sounded so far off, lost in the din of loud words that rang in her head.

 

Tum jaisee ladkiyon ka kya hai…ek gaya toh doosra….

 

Aukat dekh kar galti karni chahiye…

 

Khushi moaned, holding her head in her hands. It was true. What she feared. What she had been denying to herself. She had been greedy, greedy for some warmth, some care, some place to belong to…and now….now…now what? Khushi closed her eyes firmly, probably if she kept them closed, this nightmare would pass…probably this was not real…it was all a figment of her imagination. Her mind was playing tricks on her, again.

 

But each word broke her heart into millions of pieces, pain exploded through her being…intense, so intense that she could almost taste its saltiness as it flowed down from her eyes to her cheeks, mouth. In the broken fragments of her heart, she saw the images playing again and she knew that though she was desperate enough to deny it, this…this was the truth. What she had been living for the last few weeks, that was an illusion, a beautiful illusion which had been created to lure a desperate broken girl. Her pain, her loneliness, her injury, her amnesia – all had been tools in the hands of the man who stood right in front of her trying to once again trap her into the web of words, beautiful lies that he wove.

 

But the memories of the past burnt her, flames leaping higher and higher, swallowing every shred of peace and tenderness.

 

You have no character, Khushi…

 

Aapne amma babuji ko kaise mooh dikati ho…acha hua woh tumhe dekhne ke liye zinda nahi hain….

 

Tumhare saath ek kamre mein, che mahine…it is disgusting.

 

‘Khushi,’ she heard him again. ‘Khushi,…what is all this?’ his voice was laced with confusion. ‘Khushi.’ He sounded near. Khushi dragged herself away with a jerk, uncaring of her knee.

 

‘Careful Khushi, what…what is going on?’ he sounded perplexed.

 

The first thing that stuck her as she opened her eyes was light, the glittering lights of the poolside, the clean mattress spread under the stars along the poolside, the foolishness of the excited girl whose dreams had once again slipped from her hands.

 

‘You tell me, Mr. Raizada. What is going on?’

 

He felt the fine hair at the back of his neck rise at her quiet question. Something was amiss. If she knew about the contract, then why…why was the poolside decorated? What had she been talking about? He had missed something. Uncertainity and fear clawed at his heart. Arnav wished he could see her eyes. She still held her head down, buried in her palms.

 

‘I…I don’t know, Khushi. You wanted to talk…all this..’ he gestured around vaguely. ‘Please, Khushi. Tell me…’   

 

‘I spoke to Lavanaya. Her wedding at Sheesh Mahal, the six months …’ her words faded as the voices from the past took over again

 

‘Tumhe mujhse shaadi karni hogi. Cheh mahine ke liye…’

 

‘Iss kamre ke bahaar hum hum eik couple ki tarah honge…’

 

‘Mein tumhe kabhi apni patni ka darja nahi doonga’

 

 

‘Oh. I…I..thought…’ Arnav attempted to dismiss the panic with light heartededly.  Yet it would not fade…the anxiety that ran through his viens. If only she would look up at him. ‘Khushi. Tum theek ho?’

 

‘Only you can do this, Mr. Raizada. Only you,’ the voice was soft…so soft and calm…so unlike the flame that was burning her inside. ‘Destroy a person and then ask ‘tum theek ho.’ Is it some…does it give you pleasure….to…play with someone’s helplessness?’

 

Blood congealed and each heartbeat was a painful thud against his frozen insides. Her words echoed in his mind, raising the scepter of the dead past – Khushi Kumari Gupta trembling with rage, throwing her resignation in his face after nearly dying in that dangerous guest house.  ‘Aapki vajah se nahi, aapke bavjood hum theek hain.’ Arnav closed his eyes to dispel the nightmare he seemed to be falling into. It had happened. The moment he had been dreading each waking moment. It was here. Everything was going to fall apart in a moment. A sense of helplessness and desperation assailed him.  Legs buckled and he fell on his knees some distance from her…afraid to approach her, too scared to do anything. ‘Khushi….’

 

He wanted her to lift her head and look at him. But when she did that, he would have done anything to escape, escape from the accusation and betrayal that burnt in her eyes. One look at those eyes and he knew. ‘You…you remember….’ She turned away as if she could not bear to look at him. ‘Khushi, listen to me,’ once again he bellowed unable to bear the sight as she turned away.

 

 ‘Why? So that you can tell more lies?’ She jerked up from the mattress. Her still tender knee protested at the violent movement. Immediately she winced and bent down to hold it. Out of the corner, she saw Arnav too get up and take a step towards her. ‘No,’ she hobbled to the edge of the pool. ‘No…don’t come near me. I am alright. Just don’t come…’

 

‘Shut up, Khushi.  You are not…you are not alright.’ He would not stop. Arnav caught hold of her wrists and pulled her away from the edge. May be  he thought she was going to black out and topple in the water, may be she was going to.

 

She tried to jerk her hands away but Arnav held them in a vice like grip. He pulled her closer as if by securing her to him he would overcome the tempest that was brewing around them.

 

‘You lied to me,’ She tried to turn away.

 

‘No. I haven’t lied to you.’ His fingers left her wrist only for his hands to go around her.

 

Khushi struggled as she tried to push him away. ‘You deliberately cheated me. Fed me lies…’

 

‘No. It isn’t like that…’ He would not let her go. Arnav held her still with brute force. ‘Just let me speak…listen to me,’ he shouted. Once again they stood still like they had done weeks ago. Close, noses almost brushing against each other. But there was no tenderness. Instead there were angry breaths, two pairs of angry eyes locked in a combat…one straining  to make the other understand, the other blinded by pain and betrayal. ‘Will you listen to me, Khushi?’ Arnav controlled the panic by trying to be reasonable.

 

But Khushi was in no mood. Taking advantage of his momentary lapse, she pushed his arms away with a jerk. ‘Like you listened to me? Give me a reason…one good reason Mr. Raizada, that I should listen to you. One good reason that I should believe that what you are going to tell me is true.’

 

‘You don’t believe me! But Khushi,’ he moved towards her. She stepped back holding up her hand to stop him. ‘You don’t believe that…that…Does all this mean nothing to you then? Have these weeks meant nothing to you?’

 

The flame was burning her being, charring her happiness. Her dreams emerged out of the fire it…crumpled useless ashes.

 

 Gift nahi to tip samajh kar rakh lo….

 

‘yeh masoomiyat mujhe dhokha nahi de sakti. Main tumhari asliyat jaanta hoon…Tum eik giri hui ladki ho’

 

She remembered the words of the devil.

‘Aapke liye koi nahi aayega Khushi ji. They will think that you ran away with your lover.’

 

She felt destroyed…destroyed once again as she had been on the day when he had revealed the truth behind their marriage…when she had tried to plead with him and he had thrown her words in her face.

 

 ‘What do they mean to you, Mr. Raizada? A way to tell yourself that you have set things right? A way to absolve you of your guilt? Or is it a reward for ridding you and your family of that snake? Another tip?’

 

‘Khushi,’ he had to stop her …stop her from saying all this…thinking all this. ‘Think Khushi. Think about all these weeks and tell me…..’

 

‘Leave me alone, Mr. Raizada’ she interrupted. ‘I don’t want to hear…don’t want to hear your words, your lies that you…’

 

‘No,’ a single blunt word halted the flow of hers. ‘I told you in Sheesh Mahal, Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada. I will not leave you now. Not for a moment. And it would do you good to remember that.’

 

Arnav would always remember the silence that followed his stern words, no longer tender, but harsh, determined, making her aware of the inevitability of his presence by her side. He would not leave her. Khushi’s heavy breathing punctuated the silence…a calm before the storm.

 

‘Remember…yes, I will remember.’ She hissed.  ‘I remember. Bhagwan ho na aap. You are one who writes your fate, everyone’s fate. Tell me, what else do you want to write in my fate….’ Khushi snatched the sheet that covered the mattress and thew it at his feet. Tears choked her voice. Hair came undone. ‘Is there more pain, more grief…do I still have to pay for your thirst for revenge. What do you want? What more do you want?’ Khushi was shouting, trembling with rage as she picked up jug of water on the table and threw it on the ground. Shards of glass scattered like the two breaking hearts.

 

‘Khushi,’ he shouted suddenly scared for her. Had he pushed her too far? She seemed to have lost all sense of safety. Rage took over completely. She was no longer listening.

 

 ‘Or is it your guilt?’ With one swipe of her hand, the glasses on the table joined the shatterd jug. ‘Do you think I am a doll which you can pick up whenever you want, and break her, and walk all over her?’  she tore at the plants around her, pushing the pots till they fell at her feet, shattering and spraying mud in all directions.  ‘Healing my injury, cosmetic surgery, physiotherapy.’ She kicked one. The impact jarred her knee and she fell, a shard of glass cutting through her fingers.

 

‘Stop, Khushi,’ Arnav ran towards her.

 

But Khushi was beyond reason. ‘I hurt, I bleed! Can’t you see. I am not a doll.’ With her injured hand, she pulled the fairy lights that lit the poolside and threw them behind her. Her feet tangled in the wires and she fell.

 

Arnav was by her side. ‘Oh my god, Khushi. Your knee. Oh god!, Arnav paniced. But as he came to sit near her, she dragged herself away.

 

‘Don’t. Touch. Me. Leave me alone. Leave me alone,’ she was shouting hysterically, dragging herself away from him.

 

‘Okay, stop.’ Arnav shouted, putting lid on her hysteria. Words died but her slender body still trembled against the onslaught of emotion ‘Stop, Khushi. Ok. I will…I will do that. Just, just come inside.’

 

Khushi remained seated stubbornly still breathing heavily.

 

 ‘I will leave, Khushi. Just come inside. I will leave you alone….please.’  If only she would hear him.

 

Khushi got up gracelessly. ‘Your knee…’ Arnav began. But she walked away towards the room, her stiff gait telling him that she was in pain. Once upon a time he would have raged at her for turning away when he was still talking. There was little he could do now but follow her.

 

 She stood inside, her back towards him waiting for him to leave.

 

Arnav walked to the door. ‘We need to talk, Khushi. You are angry now. So I will…I will leave. For now, I will leave. But don’t think this is over,’ He finished before closing the door behind him quietly and sinking down to the ground.

 

 

 

 

 

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40 thoughts on “(Unforgettable) Part 24: Echoes of the Past

  1. badfaith4u says:

    Finally she remembers everything
    Of course, Arnav is not going anywhere and thank god
    Hopefully Khushi’s anger subsides and the whole truth comes out in front of everybody

  2. Niki says:

    wow!!! an intense update.. and frankly i guess this is exactly how it would (should) play out, very well written. His emotions are intense and tossing between guilt and ASR 😛
    great one. cant wait for the next update.

  3. naushi78 says:

    ok. so now she remembers and he is not leaving! all the cruel things he said to her have come back with a bang.

  4. finally she remembers the bitter portions of the relationship??
    but this story is nafrat paas ane na de mohabbat dur jane na de ….

    how will arnav convine her? ASR style or arnav style??

    waiting waiting:)

    Thank you so much for updating dear:)

  5. HEARTBREAKING INTENSE SHE REMEMBER ALL THE HURTFULLY THINKS OF THEIR PAST THE PRESENT WIPING OUT THE NEW DREAMS AND NEW TRUTHS MIND BLOWING UPDATE

  6. farheen75 says:

    This is what I wanted to see in the actual show but it never happened but thank you for writing such a beautiful Khushi’s outburst… She paid the price for being the adopted daughter with her tears and blood and finally she remembers the treatment meted out to her by everybody but Khushi has to admit that her own family is the biggest criminal in everything that has happened to her, Arnav didn’t know her but her family did that what kind of a girl she was and still they left her at Arnav’s mercy was just unacceptable, I want her to be mad at her own family as well like she is mad at Arnav.

    What options does Arnav have now to save his marriage plus his relationship with Khushi, is he ready to do what it takes to earn her forgiveness, to show his vulnerability and weakness for her and to actually not force her to accept him by again black mailing her into staying with him again? I just can’t wait for them to talk on this issue bcz I would really love to read how u r gonna write Arnav’s reaction and behaviour now when the truth is out in the open and the table has completely turned against him as I truly believe that once he earns Khushi’s forgiveness then he is the only one for Khushi.

  7. serendipitylove90 says:

    This was excellent!!! The pace was perfect…the writing was impeccable..!
    Just the way I imagine arnav and Khushi at redemption… She unrelenting and at the throes of pain and he unrelenting and at the throes of love… Redemption but in true ASR style… 🙂 update soon 🙂

  8. Michealle Niaz says:

    My heart is still racing after reading that!!! Like like superlike

  9. ranogill says:

    awesome update….yeh to hona hi tha…arnav now have to start from basic…

  10. Atyay says:

    Khushi’s hurt and anger is justified.
    Fabulous update!!! Already waiting eagerly for the next update.

  11. lsavitree says:

    brillant & well written update.
    my heart goes for khushi
    thanks for pm & eagerly waiting t read more

  12. stories1408 says:

    So finally she remembers.good god can’t wait for d next part.will love to c him beg.waiting for family’s reaction about d contract.asr deserves this.d actual series let him go way too easily.

  13. dmgview says:

    good part.. she remembers.. now she can heal..

  14. She shd make them apolijise to her ,love the update very profound

  15. .Boss. says:

    That was a very intense and powerful update! Loved every bit of it!! Can’t wait for the next part already!! Continue soon!

  16. adhiti says:

    WoWWWW!!!!!

    That was simply amazing. Kushi’s anger, I could feel it in the pages. I mean it was simply wonderful presentation. I just love you for this update.

    I had thought you forgave Arnav so soon. But nope, this was a terrific update. Yet, I felt sad for Arnav. But he is still not ready to come out of his escapist attitudes. And unless he does that, he is never going to reach anywhere with Kushi. He is so much fo ASR with her rather than Arnav! That’s the first problem. It is so right of Kushi to think he is doing all this out of guilt maybe!

    Oh God! All the insults came together in her mind! Toh tho gaya ASR!

  17. sfghfj says:

    Intense update. khushi remembered everything. eagerly waiting for d next part

  18. javeria3991 says:

    At last the veil is lifted and Khushi remembered everything. Khushi’s outburst was normal reaction. Everyone manipulated her and treated her as a doll with no feelings. For her the past days full of happiness wasn’t enough for her to give forgiveness to everyone especially Arnav. She is taking it all as illusion, and why won’t she, after all she was always doubted and she can’t believe and digest the current behavior of Khushi. Time has changed, before it was everyone one who questioned Khushi and now it will be Khushi questioning everyone. Arnav is scared that Khushi might leave him but he need to be strong and should brace himself for more accusations as now fingers are going to raise. I like that Arnav is now not going to let Khushi away from him, he will wait and give Khushi time as much as she want and leaving isn’t an option for her. But one thing I knew that Khushi is going to act responsibly and maturely and now being nothing as stake except herself, she will decide her future only remembering her as enough is enough.
    Eagerly waiting for the next part.

  19. sanasafina says:

    Awesome update….
    So intense and perfectly written…..
    This is what I wanted in the show to happen…. A TRUE redemption….
    With now unveiled past came all the pain and grief with may be more intensity….. Her outburst and reaction is truly justified…..
    Arnav need to give her time…. Some weeks of happiness cannot undo the hurt and pain of months….
    Loved it….
    Continue soon…

  20. piyasahay says:

    OMG Written so well….
    Awsum…intense pain…,…
    Khushi remembring evrythng…, both sides heart break.., how arnav will mend it..,.

  21. Hina69 says:

    Wow wow wow!!!!!!!!!:)

    So intense was the moment of truth!!!;(

    I just loved all !!:)

    The way you described how everything got back to Khushi’s mind was superb!!!!!*clap*

    But if Arnav thinks that its gonna be easy to make her listen him and make her stay than he is solely mistaken.Right!! 😉

    And like always i said! Plz update soon.I just cant wait to know what is gonna happen??????:|

  22. Gia says:

    Wow, this was an awesome update

  23. priya300 says:

    She remembers each and every insult arnav said to her
    She was so broken arnav was desparately trying to make her understand and trying to remember all their past weeks beautiful moments together but all was forgotten. ..nothing matters now

  24. that was awesome

    summaiyasyed (IF)

  25. arshina223 says:

    Oh my god!!
    This was fantastic.
    This confrontation couldn’t be better than this.
    I seriously felt all the things khushi said. They way she reacted was so perfect. anyone in her place would have reacted like that only.

    Fabulous update!!!

  26. labiba18 says:

    Really heart wrenching updTe…I hope they get over it

  27. fiza says:

    uff it was so intense…. tht i was holding my breath while reading it… i cant chose anyone bth are so right at there place… loved it so much
    so waiting for next part

  28. shafqee80 says:

    wowwwwwww …what a powerful update …a justified outburst of khushi …yesssss ..for god sake she was not a doll she was a human ….loved it …

  29. vidyasanjay says:

    The tables have turned now.It is worse that she is remembering only the hurtful instances now.I hope that she will give Arnav a chance to explain himself .

  30. You know, when you take Arnav’s words in isolation, like the memories flooding to Khushi after months of forceful suppression, they seem unforgivable. In a way they were, immensely cruel words which are impossible to forget for any sane human being. Yet, Khushi did manage, upto an extent, to move past them and find it in herself to love him, before losing her memory. But like they say, what goes around comes around. These words, once brushed off, have now turned into acid corroding their fragile relationship.

    Khushi’s hysterical, angry reaction was hard-hitting, but very needed. For an amnesiac, this must be a very difficult phase, once again losing her entire support system, betrayed by her own family members. Because whichever way you look at it, this was a betrayal, not just by Arnav, but by every one of both Guptas and Raizadas. I think NK had probably anticipated this and tried to make it a little easier for her by telling her about Arnav’s past in the hospital, but then it was a moment interrupted. And nobody wanted to break this illusion of a paradise.

    I suppose she will now figure out they are not really married and try to leave. Let’s see how Arnav reacts to that. Have to say, this was one of the most well-written chapters in the FF. You do angst really well.

  31. piyasahay says:

    Waiting for nxt update

  32. anita says:

    Waiting for an update of both the stories. Please.

  33. rati123 says:

    Please , please update the next part ! Cant wait to read what happens next !!

  34. equation9 says:

    finally she remembers everything. the moment which for which most of us have been waiting for is here. But, after reading this chapter I think both Arnav and Khushi should start their life on a fresh page.

    For that the most important thing what I feel is that Khushi needs to forgive Arnav and tell him that he doesn’t have to be her husband just because once he had thought and done wrong to her and both of them and their families have suffered a lot and they better not continue with the farce of marriage and end it all here.

    probably the most awaited moment has still not arrived Khushi still doesn’t remember that their marriage has expired and probably there is no legal proof that they were even married because as far as I know one needs to apply 1 month prior to registration to be recognized by the legal system as a married couple. and both of them had married in a day without any proper ritual.

  35. rati123 says:

    Please update. Dying to know what happens next.

  36. Avi says:

    A piece of excellent work, with heart touching emotions!

  37. Wow tht was one amazing chapter…. Amazing written…. Wow…

  38. mahrusweety says:

    Ohh
    that’s scary.
    khushi is hell angry auir banta bhi hai.

  39. addicted25 says:

    This was painful to read as well as to see. The angst you have captured makes me want to tear up for her, having lived though it once, she has to remember it. Beautifully written it captures that tornado that was just waiting to happen

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